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She woke up late and tried to sleep away the afternoon
She drifts away and dreams of ways to fill her time without you
Oh no, I only know how it feels when I'm alone
I'm here at home and I try to sleep away the morning blues
I feel alone but I'd feel it more if I was there with you
Oh no, I only know how it feels when I'm at home when it's so easy and familiar
I'm floating above my body
Listening to myself say the wrong things
Watching my mouth vomit words I don't think
Arguing ideas which don't belong to me
And I don't agree
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Hazy Sunday
03:43
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I don't know what to do
I only want to waste time with you
And just melt into the ground
Whenever I'm feeling down
My sense of self is splintered
I slept away the winter
Dreaming of the summer sunshine
In my relentless downtime
The sun is out
But I'm underground
I slept through my alarm chimes
And woke up still tired for nighttime
To distractions that I need right now
Because I've grown so bored of myself
The sun is out
But I'm underground
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3. |
Occult
03:22
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We divide ourselves
Even if we know that there's no
Reason to be found
Still, we seek it out
I should change myself
I don't know what else I could do
I've begun to melt
I'm drowning in my cells
I heard that you're leaving
Looking for some extrinsic purpose or
Sense of meaning
I know it's not out there, but if you find it
I'll be so angry
You get so upset
You just need a god who needs you
I've become obsessed
With what is meaningless
I'm still in this city
Dreaming how you've realized that
You don't have to be
Anything at all and you're just
Waking up to see
That nothing has to change and you're just
Purposeless, like me
Which should make us feel content except
I still feel so empty
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4. |
Desert Song
03:12
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I drank enough but couldn't stop
I wanted to breathe the dirt
I wanted to feel the earth
What I'd give up could be a lot
But even with endless time
I can't make up my mind
I forgot, I don't know what
But I'm pretty sure that's the point
And now I don't know where I'm going
I would sell off my every thought
I don't know what for
Just anything more
In the summer sun
Minds are melting in their fluids
I don't even notice anymore when things around me change
When all I've ever done is stay the same
I can't say why
Drowning now in cleaning smells
Get some sleep to reset yourself
Take medication to relax
Until oblivion brings black to melt the hours away
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She's a sad machine
She only goes where everyone sees
She only goes where she can be mean
And called pretty
But she falls apart
She wants to be respected for her art
And finish projects she'll never start
To feel smarter
She doesn't like pretending she doesn't feel a thing
Nobody cares what she'll say anyway
But she's smiling, and shows off her perfect teeth
But it's what's beneath which should surely drown me
Her face looks thin
Her blood presses against her tight skin
And shoves its way through her heart again
And again
She doesn't like herself
She never thinks about her own health
She spits vomit from her pretty mouth
And feels better
We don't like pretending we never see a thing
It isn't our place to say anyway
But if she allows herself to be manipulated
What can we do?
It just looks so sweet to me. If it's really so grim
Then why don't you leave him? I'll defend it since
Things look nice from far away and you still look great
And that's all that I see
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6. |
Cornflower Blue
03:04
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This was a garden
Now it's a factory
This was a swimming pool where we would go to drink chlorine
To shut down and float away
On dreams of peaceful sleep
When you could stop yourself from analyzing everything
Oh no, I mythologize you
And can't let it go
You're still in my room when I sleep
Get out of my head
Describe the world to me
Because I just can't understand or stop wondering
And I only live to spend and breed
But can't stand the idea of being alone or bear the thought of being free
Hot or freezing I don't
Know what to like or what I want
I'm burning up just like a
Glowing red cartoon devil
I'll leave it up to you
I just always make the worst decisions
I'll let you change me too
Just tell me where to make the first incision
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7. |
On The Beach
03:37
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I know
I should go somewhere
I should do something
I should breathe fresh air
But when I'm asleep
Don't bother me
I'm dreaming
I think
I should be someone
I should try to have fun
I should get some sun tomorrow
But when I'm asleep
Don't bother me
I'm dreaming
Hey nightmares
Hello nightmares
I fear
I will fail my kids
I am too selfish
How could they want this
I don't know why
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8. |
Big Wave
02:24
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Shanananananananananananananananana!
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9. |
Groundhog Day
03:46
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Yes every time
That we try to leave
We end up in the same place
We try to change
But every day is the same
When we never fix the mistakes
I want to know
If you mean what you say
When you're hurt and sad and lonely
I don't understand
Why I want what I want
When I know it's so bad for me
We never say enough
We never learn a thing
And we don't even dream
Anymore
I never see the point
I never want to move
So tell me how you do
Please
You wake on the floor
After the liquor store
And saying all the wrong things
You beat yourself up
But still you're chewing the words
And you can't control the craving
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I wish that things were easy
But I don't know how to ask for what I need
I wish you didn't see me
I need to feel committed
To help distract from intrinsic discontent
Which could have been prevented
I want the comfort back
It's all that I can stand
There's nothing wrong with how we
Give ourselves to whoever we think we need
Or anyone who's wanting
There's nothing good about how
We commit to gods who won't show themselves
And claim their words as profound
Not confirmation bias
But why put your faith in science
I see what I want to see
As long as I can change how each passage reads
My faith is unrelenting
My deity speaks through me
I'm the only one who knows what it means
I'll tell you what he's thinking
I like to chase a feeling
But I need to bend the meaning
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11. |
Such A Pretty Bird
03:43
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I'm young
But I feel old
And so cold
I hide away
I
I do just what I'm told
Because I'm so bold
I hide away
I'm poor
But with a degree
That means nothing
So I hide away
And to pay it back
I sell groceries
But it's so beneath me
That I hide away
Oh, I want to know
Where you go to be alone
You're so lucky
I'm lazy and green with envy
Well you should want the same things
As everybody else
At least meet the benchmark
But all I know is I don't want to see my face
Where I wouldn't have placed myself
It doesn't mean a thing
No no no no no I don't question
What I think I know
And I don't grow
I just hide away
And my kids
Aren't who I had hoped
They disappointed me
So I hide away
Oh, I want to know
Where you go to be alone
I'm so unlucky
No one appreciates me because I'm too unique
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12. |
Everything Will Be Okay
03:57
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I’m vacant now
I wasted time and I still do
But don’t make a sound
For fear of being found
I collapsed on the sidewalk
I didn't say a thing so you never knew
I'm in no state to drive home
I blast cold air to keep me up when I'm stoned
And send help away
I claim that it’s okay
But the things I say
Illustrate a different position when
I’m stuck again
And I can't comprehend
The arguments you make since I don't think
Everything will be okay
Reality distortion
I make insignificant motions
And don’t explain what I mean
I just misremember what I’ve seen
And I only left
When I lost the illusion of depth
Which just can’t be fixed
I give up when I feel too different
But then it’s clear
I only want to disappear because I can't
Say what I mean
Without drowning in a flood of feeling
So I'm stuck again
And finally understand
How to dissociate when I don’t think
Everything will be okay
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13. |
Fall
02:58
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I heard it
Frozen on the bridge
I don’t turn around
Or forget the sound
And I still hear the laugh from far away
In the middle
Of the circles
I'm harboring a painting, now
Drink.
In Mexico City
And think. See
That there is no real innocence, oh, no
I am judge-penitent
Hear my confession
Blind men
I would help them
Cross the street then
Tip my hat and take a bow
For my crowd
For myself
So humble
I’d feast on my ego
Yes. Confess. Listen.
I know I was a hypocrite but
Drink. Think. Be changed.
At least I am aware of it today
Slip. Scream. Sink.
So I could save you from the Seine.
And drink. Think. Be saved.
But I’m glad that it will always be too late
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14. |
Burning
05:01
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Crossed wires get twisted up in your mind
Then branch down to the chest to suffocate the organ inside
But how come you're not even gone yet
But you've already started to disappear?
You're walking away from me
You drag your feet, you're stumbling
And I know
That sometimes you forget to breathe
Trapped down beneath your buried dreams
But so what
Just let them be make-believe
Like everything you chose not to see
Since you knew
You'd walk away silently
And just leave behind the things you need
For me
Some people can't turn it off, I suppose
I get everything that I demand or it sticks in my throat
But it's not that I'm so deserving
It's just I never really got used to being told no
You're walking away from me
You're missing opportunities
That you've earned
And sometimes you forget to breathe
Trapped down beneath my heavy feet
But so what
I get everything I need
Just take with ease, historically
But I've learned
When every thought's I or Me
Then why would I give up anything
For free
I guess you just don't think like I do
So shocking, you're so shocking
I could never even tell why you'd want to
Ever sell yourself short like you always seem to do
But how come you're not even dead yet
But you've already started to decompose?
You're running away from me
Pick up your feet, you're stumbling
Tripping up
But I'm not used to struggling
Good fortune seems to just follow me
But so what
It's not my fault if you believe
In fantasies like equity
But I know
The problem just can't be me
And I'll always react so viciously
Burning
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15. |
Somethingtown
03:44
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Hey
Take a look outside
And before it gets dark tonight
Put your shoes on and go absorb some light
Now
Wait
You should come back soon
Because I'll be so bored without you
I just never know what to do
Now
With myself
I'm running away, I only stay when I'm angry
Trying to change, but I can't help how you make me
Feel every day as if I should have known maybe
I'd stay the same or just regress back to eighteen
Yes
I know you've been depressed
And to distract from your neurosis
Look for something to dull what you can't suppress
Now
I'm going to stay, I only leave where I'm welcome
Trying to change but I keep making myself numb
Feel every day like there's more that I should have done
You eat the blame and I'll just drink until I act dumb
I'm going to stay
I'll go away
I'm going to stay
Okay
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Jumpy, crunchy weirdo rock.
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